DARK PLACES
The thing about dark places is that it makes you confront the thing that bothers you the most, the cards are now either faced up, or down based on the choice you decide to make. I have been to dark places-sadly -much more often than I think I deserved and what keeps bringing me there is the choices that I make.
I wish I am able to see myself sometimes from a distance, just to stop me from arriving at such places. Dark places were designed to weigh heavily on the heart, make you sigh, make you dream of the light again, but most importantly to make you dream of a future where all the wrong is set right. Your dark places will also serve as a constant reminder for you to know-not to make the same mistake twice, but the mind is a tricky thing and the heart untamable, you will make other mistakes that will forever open the revolving door, shunting you back to the dark places. My advice-stay awake-try to find a solution-always, don't stay in the dark for too long, it will consume you, eat you, make you feel powerless, but remember who you are and that where you are now is not where you will stay.
I don't know where your dark places are or where they will lead you, I don't even know where my dark places are, all I know is that I just occasionally arrive at these places. LET US continue to fight when we arrive at these points in life because we deserve COMPLETE HAPPINESS, not half but the whole heart, no secrets, no lies, not silence but truth and complete honesty, not violence but peace. We deserve to be loved as if we knew were to die any moment, no avoidance but Honey I see you and I am here-all of me-here. We deserve the look into our eyes and the kisses on the foreheads type of love and completeness.
I believe I found love once, twice maybe thrice-not completely sure but somehow all three times I made the wrong choice- with each leading me to a dark place, but the darkest place I'VE been to is here. I thought I found love-to which I gave myself- I gave all of me, only to feel the greatest pain womankind can ever feel- alone, loss, rejected, denied, avoided, utter silence and ultimately feeling used and an impending feeling of being discarded. Being married and stuck in such a place is mental and physical torture. The pain and anguish I feel every day haunts my nights and the only light I see is my 9 month old daughter and my soon to be born son. They keep my heart warm and my soul thirsty for true love again, even amongst all the financial debts that I find myself in, I am confident that not only true love will find me but financial freedom will arrive as well. As I writer through the tears that flows from my eyes and flooded my face I pray for me, but I pray for you as well, that help will arrive and that the ports of happiness and wealth will never fail to dock in our lives. I am hopeful and I am working towards my goals despite failures and setbacks. Please do the same. Let dark places be filled with lights. We are beautiful and our smile is even more beautiful than the moon at nights. We are strong. WE..ARE..WOMEN.
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